Unbelievable

2011-09-17T21:28:00.003+08:00

hello people i just feel like blogging now.
hehe having hoildays now and i am enjoying myself
enjoyed my camp last tues to thursday.
adventure club for the win ! hehehe
ouhkaye i dont know what to say now .
hahahaha

my face is so black now,
super tanned.
but i loike ! hehe

alright thats all

buhbyeeeee

2011-06-03T16:29:00.001+08:00

I WANT SOMEBODY TO LOVE

2011-04-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

you think its that easy ?
if ur just gonna tell me nonsense then just shut up.
im tired of everything.
dont come and mess it up more.
if you really care , you wouldnt say that .

2011-04-03T20:21:00.002+08:00

ive got no mood for anything.
i just wanna die and end every misery .
no one really cares .
i tried to be strong and but everytime i do ,
it makes me feel more hurt .
i hope my death day comes fast .....

whn i said ' no one ' , i meant it .

2011-04-02T18:28:00.003+08:00

One day they led him
up calvary's mountain

one day they nailed him
to die on a tree

suffering anguish
despised and rejected

bearing our sins my redeemer is he

hands that healed nations
stretched out on a tree

took the nails for me

2011-03-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

LORD , bakit ganun ?
ang hirap naman .
alam ko na dati ko pa hinihingi na magkaroon ng pinoy na boyfriend .
pero , bkit ngayon , may dumating nga sa buhay ko pero hindi ko naman mahal ?
bkit kailangan may masaktan pa ? nasasaktan din naman ako eh .
alam ko , pati siya nasasaktan kasi hndi ko siya gusto .
pero ,nasasaktan din ako , kze parang kuya na siya saaken .
oo , naging suplada ako sayo kze ayaw ko na makuha mo ung wrong idea .
pero i guess , un na nga ung nagets mo.
pero wala eh , hndi mo nman mapipilit na mahalin ka ng isang tao diba.
at , kailangan ba na umabot sa ganito ? na iiwasan mo ako para hindi mo na ako ma miss ? pano un , mawawalan ako ng kasama , ng kausap pagmay problema , at ksama uminom ?
oo ikaw ng ung tinawag ko kahapon kze feel ko lang . na maiintindihan mo ako at sasamahan pag may problema . na may makasama . pero bakit kze , na mahalin mo ako ?
sana hindi nalang . haiiiii , ang hirap nga talaha ng buhay no .
ANG SARAP UMIYAK ! PERO masakit din ......
ang sakit sakit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM VERY SAD NOW !!!!!!!
VERY VERY SAD !
AND MY TEARS ARE FALLING LIKE WATERFALLLLLL !!

2011-03-22T13:53:00.002+08:00

ok ive decided to blogggggg since ive got ntn to do here at KIYO .
haha its like the slackest job ever laaa .
im at orchard central kiyo and no customers are coming in.
so ive brought my laptop to entertain myself . hehe
so , ytd was hell at home .
and id rather stay at work than stay at home . hhehe
HOME IS HELL I SWEAR !
hhaha well whatever ! imiss philippines !
my cousins , my relatives !!
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
and i don like u , i hope u get it ! haha
ok think ill watch some videos in youtube , tata for now !!!! :D

2011-03-17T00:14:00.004+08:00

I SERIOUSLY FUCKING HATE MT LIFE I SWEAR !
I HATE MY DAD !!!!!!
FUCKING ASSHOLE !
I CANNOT STAND THE WAY HE TREATS US .
HE THINKS THAT VIOLENCE IS SO COOL ?
FUCK OFF LA , WE'RE JUST TOLERATING U COS OF UR FREAKING MONEY.
IF I CAN , I WOULD LEAVE HOME
BUT BECAUSE OF UR MONEY IM NOT !
I SERIOUSLY AM TIRED OF LIFE WITH YOU BOTH !
I AM ASHAMED TO HAVE PARENTS LIKE YOU .
SERIOUSLYYYYYY , MY LIFE SUCKSSSSS
AND YES I LOVE OTHER PPL MORE THAN YOU !
I'D RATHER HUG THEM THAN YOU .
IDC IF URE JEALOUS OR WHAT BECAUSE I LOVE THEM MORE !
I AM SAYING THIS NOT BECAUSE IM ANGRY ,
I AM ALREADY COOLED DOWN BUT ALL THESE ARE STILL COMING OUT.
IT JUST PROVES THAT YOU'VE HURT ME BADLY ,
ITS ACCUMULATED ALREADY AND I CANT LIE TO MYSELF ANYMORE.
IF I HAD TO CHOOSE WHETHER YOU OR OUR LAST TIME MAID , I'D CHOOSE HER
BECAUSE SHE UNDERSTANDS ME MORE THAN U DO !
I LOVE HER MORE AND THATS FINAL !

I HATE MY PARENTSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i feel like breaking down ,
will u comfort me ?

2011-03-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

helloooooo,
today went for medical check up and xray.
it was supposed to be sent last week but i had no time as i had to go back ph .
soooo ,rushed it today . went early morn .
then afternoon went to watch movie with younger sis and her classmates.
watched GNOMEO AND JULIET 3D .
hehe it was nice but a bit short though.

after that was supposed to meet ryan to watch another movie,
but then i didnt feel like watching anymore so i said no .
sad case uh . but i really don wanna give him false hopes u see .
so im trying my best to avoid him .
haha so yea , maybe ill just invite him to church events since he's so dying to see me -.-

OH BEFORE THE WORLD ENDS , I WANNA BE WITH ALL MY RELATIVES IN PHILIPPINES.
IN BAGUIO CITY , MY HOMETOWN <333

2011-03-15T00:40:00.003+08:00

hello ppl
ive decided to blog again .
i miss blogging laaaaaa.
haha I GOT MY NEW LAPTOP !
hahaha

ok anws , ive quitted my job , the telemarketing .

it sucks to the maxxxx !
i hope i wasnt sent to that company laaaa
or maybe its not the company , maybe its the person who hired me.
haha well , the pay is good but if its not fun then whats the point?
so im working for kiyo again , the one at orchard central, hope my friends will visit me.
and i knw not manyy ppl read my blog now uh . HAHA
maybe JOY TRISTAN is :p

haha KIYO is way more fun than telemarketing .
hehe but the pay is ..........

hahah anw i went back to PHILIPPINES last week ,for five days
monday to friday.
why ?? cos my uncle passed away and i felt damn sad
and i hope the killer will be killed soon !
sighhhhhhhhh ,
so anw , i miss my relatives and i love their presence .
the only thing that made me wanna stay there is cos of them.
I MISS THEM SO MUCH and i cant bear to knw that my aunt's life is at danger.
and i pray to god for their safety.
but had fun there but scary too.
guyss everywhere kept staring as if they wanna kill u or smth.
lol
sighhhhh , i really miss them alot uh . ):
ughhhhhhhhhhh

okaye . u bitch yes you
cant u see everyone doesnt like u ?
will u freaking change ur attitude ?
we wont respect u until u give us respect too.

hey boy ,
u came back after 1year and two months ?
and now u're telling me u still love me and ur sorry for last time?
u think its that easy ?
well . its not .
if u've really change , ill see that by now,
but i dont see any changes at all .
so lets just stay as friends (:

hey pinoy ,
idk if its true but i can sense it too.
but dont u get it ? i don wanna see you
no matter how hard i try to get away from u,
somehow u'll still find a way.
omg , im really pissed with u at times u knw ?
so its better that we keep a distance (:

hey pinoy2,
idk if that is true or ur just putting that to make me feel jealous.
but lemme tell you , i aint jealous at all cos i only treat u as friend.
as a colleague , rather .
so u also gotta stop it dude (:

hey shitty asshole,
i aint gonna let the past repeat and let other girls suffer cos of you.
soooooo, i am gonna do what is right because i care for her , and because she's my friend

hehe alrights , blog again soooooooooooooooooon
TATA:D

2011-02-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO ,
HELLO HELLO .

BYEEEEEE :DD

2011-01-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

hello peepohs !!

If there are ppl reading my blog , pls tag me !!
Cos it seems like im talking to myself , which is nice .
Heheh , so today had a fun day with fun ppl :
reb , josh , joanna , lilin , ishmum ( ? ) , erlyn , mav .
Hehe went to church in the morn , sat with cass and jac .
Then headed to ksl to eat . Then to np to meet reb they all .
Went to city plaza and there were cool clothes thr .
Yea quite nice , alot of clothes . Heheh ,
so then went town to walk arnd . Visited cass again . And yea ,
back to np to buy stuff and was home arnd 10 plus .
Then yea that was my day , loved it .
Heheh , ROSE SHIT , i hate you but i liked it just now .
Seems like nothing happened .
Huhu , k bye peeps
ttfn !! (:

2011-01-01T19:16:00.003+08:00

hello i am seriously bored .
On christmas day , i was stuck at home cos i had fever .
Now its new years day and im stuck at home cos dad has fever .
What a life i have ! I wannna go out man !
I wanna work too , i hate being home whole day !
Esp when i know everyone is enjoying themselves and im stuck here . Oh my goshhhhhhh .
And my sister is playing sims ??
And my other sis is going out ??
ZOMGOSH !!!!!!

Heheh, i needa go out i tell you !!

2011-01-01T01:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO PPL !!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!

I enjoyed myself today although countdown had to go home .
Had to celebrate countdown with family , it was boring i swear !!
Heheh , so you didnt u feel awkward today ?
You werent supposed to be thr . Its like ure uninvited but u came today .
She herself told me she didnt want u thr , but she had no choice but to ask a dog to tag along .
Poor thing right you ? Still have to think twice before coming and u say its cos of me ?
Oh well im closer to her and she prefers me to u , so live with it asshole (:
yea , so 2011 , im liking the feel of it . I feel that itll be a much better yr than 2010 !!
Yea yea YEA !! Im excited for whatever's gonna happen , weeeeeeee :D
haha so ya , today went to marina barrage to celebrate joey's birthday .
Its was enjoyable yo !! We got wet in the rain and we played in the mud and the water . We flew kites too .
Heh so now its 2.30 and were gonna watch moviee , at home !! Hehe
k , TTYL bye peeps .

Hope ill love 2011 ! Bye :D

2010-12-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

YO HELLO ! (:

merry christmas to all !
Haha yes i know its over but its just a few days back .
Haha , so hello , anyone missed me ?

Well , just gonna say im hating this guy who is tall , who played with me .
He tells people stuff abt me that is not true .
He is such a bitch , he played with me like a toy .
Made me fall in love with him ,
played me like a toy ,
and was bored of me so he said stuff that i drink and whatsoever.
Well , if u didnt ask me for sex , would things be this way ?
Yes thats right , sex .
U think im so cheap ? U think id agree to do that with u ?
And when i said i didnt want it , you say ur feelings for me fade ? WHATEVER .
Seeeeee , and that secret is still kept with me . Ppl don knw abt ur bad side
thats why they look up to u . But hey , once i decide to open my mouth ,
say goodbye to ur reputation . Once i cant take things that ure doing , ill say it .
So be prepared . And yes , ill hate u for life , i swear !!

Heh , okie enuff said abt him .
I am always bored . I wanna work !!
Well probably no one reads my blog alrd but i just needed to
let stuff out so yea , if u read this pls tag on my tagboard ? Thanks .

Oh and ya , im starting to hate u bitch ur attitude sucks big time (:

2010-10-02T00:50:00.003+08:00

OKAY HELLO .
FML .
IM SUPER DOWN NOW . ):
what can i do ?
why are the people around me not understanding what im facing through?
IM SUPER STRESSED WITH MY STUDIES .
O levels in 20 plus days and i have not studied much .
when i try to , problems after problems will come .
why god oh why ??
why at this point of time ?
i am only a human god , i cant face all those problems ur giving me .
i dont knw how to handle them and im at the edge already .
soon im really gonna break down already .
im half way there now ..
why is my family so not understanding ?
esp my parents . they're abusing me . isnt it child abuse where
your mother slaps you alot of times , punches you on the stomach , drags you on the floor , kick you several times , attempt to throw the chair at you and use the scissors to hurt you ? ISNT THAT CHILD ABUSE ?
even though the matter is super small , you make such a big fuss abt it ?
how do you expect me to study at home when all i get is pain ?
and when i go out to study , you're not happy .
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ?
my parents are super unreasonable !!
thought they're suppose to be there through ups and downs in ur life but no , my parents are not . AND i cant open up to them , its just so hard after what they have done to me . theyre just demoralising me even further . bringing my self esteem down .
I HATE BEING HOME ):
i don wanna talk to my parents nicely anymore , they dont deserve it anymore ..
I HATE MY PARENTS TTM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

and thanks to you ah piggy .
after so long ur complaining now when my o levels are coming .
how am i going to study when all i think of is you and our problems ?
I WILL NEVER TRUST GUYS AGAIN , I SWEAR !!!!!!!
DONT BE SURPRISED IF I BECOME A LESBIAN ONE DAY !!!!

YES IM ANGRY AND THATS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND NOW THIS IS WHAT YOU SAY ,
THAT YOU WANNA END THINGS ?
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS ??
IT HURTS LIKE HELLLLLLLL OKAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THOUGHT YOURE THE RIGHT ONE ALR ,
BUT I WAS WRONG , AGAINNNNNNNNN !
FUCK.

SERIOUSLY , IM HURT ...
SO MUCH ...
I MAY TELL PPL IM NOT BUT THE FACT IS IT HURTS SO MUCH .
AFTER EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN THROUGH , THIS IS ALL THAT YOU HAVE TO SAY ?
I FEEL USED , CHEATED . I FEEL LIKE A TOY .
SO CHEAP ..

FML ,
IHATETHISLIFE SERIOUSLY .

I FEEL LIKE JUST GIVING UPPPPPPPPPPPP !!!!

if i didnt insist on talking , you wouldnt tell me all those .
you can even tell my bestfriend and expect her not to tell me .
i've been opening up to her ,
asking her why ur like that and she never even tell me anything ,
i was hurt .

ALL THOSE THINGS YOU SAID , I WILL NEVER FORGET .
I HATE YOU .

ALL THE BEST IN FINDING UR PARTNER COS BY THE WAY YOU HANDLE THINGS ,
I THINK URE GONNA HAVE A HARD TIME FINDING ONE .
SO ALL THE BEST !!!!!!!!
pity that girl .

IM HURRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !!!

it was nice taking a stroll around yishun park just now .
ID RATHER BE ALONE THAN TO BE WITH YOU ..

THANKS SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING ,

I ENDED THINGS LIKE HOW EVERYTHING STARTED ,
so i guess its really over between us .
i just have to pity myself cos i wont get over this easily .

STUPID GUYS .

IHATE/LOVEYOU.

byebastard.

2010-09-20T18:35:00.002+08:00

2010-09-18T13:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEPS !!!
I MISS BLOGGING SERIOUSLY !
so here i am , for awhile ..

ouhkaye ,
i wanna say so many things but maybe ill update another time cos im rushing for time ?
hahaha k bye peeps !!
:D

2010-08-05T21:31:00.003+08:00

ok hello people !!
its been decades since i've touched this blog .
i suddenly have the urge to update it !!
gonna change url cossss of some reasons .
haha well , ive got alot of things to say butt i dont remember all .

well god is really giving me alot of trials ..
but god , do you understand ? i cant handle it all now..
i need your help . send me an angel to guide me please ?
god , when is my family going to be problem-free ?
when are my parents going to understand that they are wrong too?/
why is it all the time its our fault . dont u realise ?
we're always giving in . i just want you two to at least listen to us ,
because you never did . All you do is hit us or worse even slap me.
dont you think this will affect our relationship ? It makes things worse .
if you ask me if i love you , i would think twice before giving an answer .
its just so hard .. You're really bringing my self esteem down .
i thought parents are supposed to be there for you all the time ?
to share all ups and downs with us ? to support us all the way ?
but thats not happening . I really dont know how to handle this .
i might just let go one day . But something is stopping me ...

Im already at the edge of the boat , ill fall anytime .. will you be there to save me ????

hais , god . its the starting of exams next week , please help me to even manage my time wisely and to even have self discipline oh god .
its really stressssing !!

And dear M***** ,
its been four months already and you still have not come.
hope there is nothing wrong with me ,
going for appointment on 6 sept for some scan ...

stomach pain , go away plssssssss !!
you're spoiling my mood .
my mood is going haywire .. pls forive me ...
you should know why ..

and god i just wanna thank you for bringing this person into my life .
he was there when i needed a comfort and someone to talk to.
he's always encouraging me and i really appreciate it .
god i really really REALLY love him alot ..

god if its meant to be , give me a sign pls ??

2010-07-10T15:37:00.003+08:00

hello .
im bored .
lazy to blog .
haha .
busy now too ,
with studies ..
o level .
i wanna play soccer , but wrong timing ,sorry .

two months of not having it ,
am i stressed ?
thats what my friend (nurse) said ..
sighh ..

bye .

2010-06-21T14:52:00.003+08:00

OMG I MISS THEM MAN !!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL !!

CELENE , ERWINNA , ELYSEE , FAZLIN , DHABITAH , RACHEL !! <33

alright .. this wiil be short i guess .

WED , 9 th june - met dennis for dinner and ycg.

THURS , 10th june - went out with diana hannah and darrell , went town and suntec .

FRI , 11th june - went to church . watched movie . sleepover .

SAT , 12th june - went home at around 9am to sleep . woke up at 11 met celene and erwinna . Went to vivo . took lotsa pics <3

SUN , 13th june - went to church . had filipino fellowship . Wore the 'filipiniana costume ' won best dressed , $50 metro voucher . slacked with cass after .

MON , 14th june - packed for chalet . Walked around e hub , ate at BK(lunch) and JUSTACIA(dinner) . watched KARATE KID .

TUES - WILD WILD WET , whole day . sunburnt . swimming at night too . then dinner and bowling .

WED - checked out of chalet , flood at orchard . went sentosa with ' K.I.S.S. camp
ppl . beach . ate dinner , ljs , sat at the rooftop , told ghost stories .

THURS - gym with dennis . met cass and jac for dinner .

FRI - went to cass hse . then to church . then to aircon coffee shop . walked to cass house and bus home .

SAT - met nicole and cass , played pool and arcade . went swimming with cass and jac . met alan dennis dhina erlyn mav after . ate dinner .
went to 'spider web' played flour , dhina's bday .

SUN - church . father's day . ate at subway . slacked at np wit wx alan cass jac erlyn mav . nara came along . bought things then home . played xbox .

TODAY - rotting at home now , maybe meeying alex later . BYE :D

SEE IM OUT EVERYDAY !
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO STUDY ??
BOHOOOOOOO ):

seriously , i've had enough .

2010-06-19T00:31:00.006+08:00

ALRIGGHT !! ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I UPDATED LA !!

AM TOO LAZY NOW . SO ILL COME BACK WITH A PROPER POST K ,
JUST WAIT :DD

ttfn ! (:

2010-06-08T13:16:00.002+08:00

hello ppl !
im loving my holidays.
but i know i shouldnt be .
i should be studying .
but i have no motivation ..
oh well . went to study with dennis ytd .
but i didnt do much work .
just stared at the worksheets .
gonna try studying today ..

went to church on sunday and pastor dag preached .
had rehearsal after that for next weeks fashion show
for the philippines independence day cum father's day .
then met the rest and went to ion .
walked around and my blister was killing me.
but its ok .
then trained back to yishun . they ate at ljs then home . (:

sat,
went for sports .
jogged 17 rounds , 200 x 17 = 3400m = 3.4km
played frisbee ..
then played basketball at night .
ME ERLYN AND CASSANDRA WON THE GUYS :
DENNIS VINCENT ALAN ALEX !!
3 VS 4 LEHHH .......
HAHAHHAHAHAH DONT UNDERESTIMATE GIRLS OKEEHH !! :DD
then home after lights off .

friday went sch for lessons .
it was a fun day okehh .
went scaring ppl.
and the funniest reaction was given by tinie .
haha damn funnaye i tell you (:
then home .
then met wx and cass to go church .
had service.
slacked with wx cass alan erlyn mave dennis jac alex after that .

thursday went for lessons again .
then after that went home to bathe and change ,.
then meet faris hannah and diana in the bus .
went amk and they ate popeye .
then walked around then back to yishun .
i was late for church .
heh heh .

mon tues and wed was a bomb i tell you .
HAD K.I.S.S. CAMP !!
ENJOYED MYSELF TO THE MAX !!
lazy to say la ....
took lotsa pic . in FB .
had amazing race at sentosa but we were jus the instructors ..
so we had fun digging for treasures .
but was tiring .
haha so many things happened ..
i miss the camp !!!!!!

sunday went vivo with friends
ate carls jr .
packed things for camp ..

i guess thats all .
lazy to blog alrd .
hahahhhh

ohmifish . i seriously dunnno what to do ..
i dont want history to repeat itself , really . and i am not sure abt this .. sighsss ..

2010-06-06T22:35:00.003+08:00

IM LAZY TO BLOG .
BUT I LOVE MY HOLIDAYS !
SHALL START STUDYING TMR (:
IF I HAVE TIME ILL UPDATE AGAIN :D

I MISSED YOU SO .
you came and went , came and went again and now youre back .
whats this ??
hmmmmmm ...

step 1 and 2 failed . but how abt step 3 ??
hmms .. (:

will my dream ever come true ? cos i dreamnt that we were back together , happily .

2010-05-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY CLASS (:
the one and only 4E8 , class of 2010 .
haha seriously had fun day today .
but some fucking loser has to spoil it .

okay
today was SPORTS AND ARTS CARNIVAL .
the day started out chaotic as some guys had to make a fool during morning assembly .
and the principal just had to waste our time .
repeated the whole morning assembly luh .
well after that ,
evrything went good .
played tug of war ( xinyi xinrui jeremiah minghui darren reeqe theerapong LZM and i cant rmb who ) , played with two classes ,
won one lost one .
then played frisbee ( darren minghui eksan reeqe zaim jeremiah siti and me ) with 3 classes and we won all .
we're the champions :D
then went to class for report books .
then took class photo but ERWINNA and KARTINI weren't inside
cos they went for their malay dance .
ok then they went for intensive mt while me panyusa theerapong
went to watch the concert .
it was nice ..
then had briefing for the camp next week .
im helping out in the K.I.S.S. CAMP .
:D
there will be lessons as well .
then went home .
was planing to go out but my mother just had to spoil my mood .
she's a bitch !
she made me cry );
stop demoralising me .
you wont know how's it like studying here , so stfu .
you're making me hate you more ..

hais , its been months and i still miss you so . i dont know why ...

2010-05-25T21:09:00.002+08:00

Somehow , im confused .
i dont know whats up your sleeves.
i wanna choose not to believe it,
but i CANT.
sigh , i hope all these would end soon and we'll forget abt it.
and to you ,
stop acting as if you know everything.
i know more than what you think you know .
ur really irritating.
acting as if you're right.
just get your freaking ass out of this matter la.
i just cant tell this to your face ,
damn it .

sometimes , i think that people have split personalities...

i suddenly miss home .
and those times where everything was perfect.
no problems.
happy family ...
hais ...

watched IP man 2 today .
was really nice..

Dear god , please bring me back to you .

2010-05-24T18:49:00.004+08:00

k hello peeps .
my second post for the day . :D
today we had the preliminary rounds for sports and arts .
joined netball and lost . bohoo ):
but its okaye la .. all their teammates were netballers .
so ya ...
hope i can go and play for other teams .
haha k yesterday was sunday .
went to church in the morning .
and me bryan wx cass and mav wore checkered shirt coincidentally ;;D
haha then took pics .
haha tell you honestly , ive not been paying attention in service.
but ytd i did .. for the first part .
then when ppl msged me , i stopped listening .
haha so blame my phone k :D

so after that went to broadway to eat .
haha took bus there (only one stop) as the weather was killing us .
then we ate .
then dexter came to join and went to np .
went amk with my mother and younger sis to buy some stuff .
then went to follow cass , jac , wx and their mom to bendemeer (??)
they bought fan and we walked around
and the weather was killing all of us .
then took 857 back to khatib.
went to mac then slack at cass hse .:D
reached home arnd 10 plus .

was suppose to go ECP with classmates but i alrd went .
haha next time k (:

saturday was loved<3
went to ECP with BRYAN CASS GRACE TRICIA DEBORAH <33
we cycled for 4 hours str but had mini stops la .
cycled all the way to changi ....
on the way back . grace's bicycle had problem .
and thankfully one bangala helped us. hahaha:D
then left there at 10.30pm .
reached home arnd 11.45 .

fri ..
went town with cass ,
bought things :D
went to peninsular .
went to church ,
and i have to say , the event was really goood .
organised by region C .
the msg was so true luh ...
but the games spoiled it .
lol .
then hanged out at ksl and i saw a flying cockroach .
at first only me cass an dennis were there .
then i was eying on the roach for very long .
then alan and wx came and we CHATTED:D
im happy(:
haha k then home arnd 12??

thurs ,
got back results .
EXTREMELY DISAPPOINTED .
wanted to cry but i guess its too late to .
so just have to buck up , ELYSEE !

wed ,,
cleaned house .
no sch.
went to ycg .
done .

tuesday<3
after that fucking art exam , went home to bathe and met diana pari hannah .
went to ECP . roller blade-ed :D
was so uber funnaye la !
pari fell . diana fell while laughing at pari .
i fell while breaking and holding hannah .
hannah fell when she wanna stand up. haha
ALL PICS ARE ON FB . :D
went swimming on the beach .
then washed up and ate at BK .
reached home 10plus .

haha that should be it .

oh im currently missing two ppl .
and i dunno why im missing you .
haha.....(:
k la im excited .
for many many things(:

hahaha k bye (:

2010-05-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

Hello hello hello . (:
I am using panyusa's phone now .
So cool right ?
Haha currently stuck in class .
Mother tongue intensive revision for the rest.
Its sucha waste of time coming school.
Hoope my mother let me don go sch tmr (:
Ok gotta go now m
See ya (:

2010-05-17T14:05:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEPS !

my stupid blogger cant change font and color la ,
seriously . dunno whats wrong .

well seems like exams are over for most of you guys ,
but im still having poa paper 1 tmr ..

AND THREE HOURS OF STUPID ART .
which obviously , i wont do anything .
k maybe rot , or stone or sleep .

but on the other hand , maybe should bring all
art materials - PAINT , COLOR PENCILS and stuff .
and i can scribble on my paper .

YAYNESS :D

okaye .. screwed most of the papers cos
ive got lotsa ' KNOWLEDGE GAPS '
( something that we were told during study skills workshop )
and i didnt fill them in .

but who cares , its only mid-year .

oh wait , i care . silly me .

i had this thinking last year too ,
like " its only sec 3 , so dont care . "
but now , im sec 4 , taking o levels !
and i still have this kinda attitude .
ELYSEE SEE , wake up yo !

haha k , i currently hate my parents .
they're so irritating , esp my mom .
she's so !@#$%^&
hahahahahahah
seriously , AND ERLYN IS GETTING ON MY NERVES ,
sorry to say that .

ok im in a ' exam over , time to party ' mood .
hahaha last friday totally enjoyed myself with my beloved darling ((:
but had bad stomach ache on that day too ..
well we went to cineleisure to watch BACK UP PLAN at 12.40pm .
it was damn nice uh thumbs up up (:
and its been so loong since i went out , like out to have funn .
k so it was not that crowded as ppl were still working i guess .
we walked around orchard and somerset .
i missed you all of a sudden.
then ate and went to city hall - peninsular ..
haha cass went gaga over some cute ass , which was her friend last time .

haha and ive been really eyeing this RED NIKE BAG , $45.90 but i cant seem to find it .

hmmmmmmmsssss ,,

walked around around around and i find myself wanting more things !

and neccesary things of course ..
haha hope i can ask my parents for money cos gonna shop till we drop man ...
haha.

alright then had church at night ,
then food and hang out .

hope to meet you tmr and settle some things maannnnzzz ..... !!
k ,

gusto kong mag yosi .
at ng boyf .
hahahahahahaahaa ;D ;D

K , THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT I CANT TELL YOU , MY DEAR .
HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND ..
I'VE BEEN KEEPING LOTS OF THINGS FROM YOU ,
SORRAYE MAN !!!!!!!!
:D

2010-05-13T11:26:00.002+08:00

Bio paper was ok today .

still have few more papers to go ..
its sso stressful ..

and you're already caught red handed.
stop lying and just admit it .
whats the point of continuing to lie
when i've got proof against you ?
if you think you could fool me , im sorry you cant .
cos ive predicted that things would be like this .
and im smart , i know all of this ..
youre just making life miserable for you and her ,
i really pity her , she's got so much of endurance .
for that 3 yrs , she managed to go through it ,
with you being like that . i really salute her .
im glad i can forget you now , after evrything that happened .
because i know that it wont go anywhere , with that kind of attitude you have.
i really pity her , seriously ..
guys are jerks , so true ...
stop denying it ..

2010-05-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO ,

IRRITATING
IDIOT
I HATE YOU
I LOVE YOU
STRESS STRESS STRESS !

BYE .

2010-05-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

hey ,

let me tell you how i spent my day today ..
60%sleeping , 20%texting , 5%watching tv and 15% doing random things ..
feel so restless ):

sorry ppl for not studying with you guys ,,
don feel well ):
both physically and mentally .
sigh ..

k i really need to study for exams, but i jus cant..
i dunno why ,
sigh ......
just feel like not doing anything at all ...

sometimes its easier to show that i am happy rather than explaining why i am not.

2010-04-28T20:01:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY COUSINS AND MY RELATIVES .
THESE PIC WERE TAKEN A FEW YEARS BACK ..

hmms am extremely tired today ..
my parents are back alrd and i waited for them to reach home before i could sleep.
they reached home arnd 2am ..
thats why i kept sleeping in class .
well for the past few days have been doing house chores till late at night .
sis didnt even help me even though i was so tired,.
had a quarrel with her last sunday .
till now we're still not talking .
we're like strangers staying under one roof .
and im really pissed with her , well not only me ..
hope you accept that u are in the wrong .
if u think im the one at wrong , why do you think all 9 of them would side me ?
its obvious , so jus accept the fact and stop quarelling wit us .
that'll only worsen your relationship with them .
but , im still very angry with you ..
i just realised that you dont have common sense ...

well have been studying with dennis for the past few days ..
as usual , study a bit and it will turn out to be a talking session .
well have not been doing well in my studies .
i really need help .
and i need to manage my time wisely ,
maybe this will be my last post . until after exam .

gave ycg a miss again cos i dont feel like going ..
hmms hope tmr will be a good day .. gonna study alrd ,
so bye readers . (:

i was trying to forget you , till you msged ..
i dunno if i shld believe you again ..
well , ill wait for you to tell me ...

and you , hope youre not falling in love ..
you ignored my question jus now ,
so its suspicious .
hmm but i only treat you as a friend , a close one ..
so yea ....

2010-04-27T00:13:00.002+08:00

hais ,
i cant stand you ..
you're so different .
i dont know you anymore , seriously .
we're like total strangers now ,
and i hate you ...
im tired ...
i wanna say lots of things but ugh ....

im just happy to have friends around me helping me ..
thank you very much ..
and to you , thanks for everything .

im sad , i need a hug ):

2010-04-25T02:28:00.003+08:00

hello (:
its 2.30 am and i jus came back from sending cass off .
she was suppose to sleep over at my house
but due to my unreasonable parents ,
they dont let .
even though they are far far away they still don let .
fish them man .. i hate them ..
seriously, i don miss them a bit .
so what for should i look forward to their arrival back to sing
when all i get is their scoldings and naggings ?
i seriously prefer it like this , with the three of us at home only ..
ugh shall not talk abt them luh ,

so today woke up at 1.15 pm ..
if cass didnt msg me i would still be sleeping .
haha but thanks to her i woke up , if not i would be late to meet her and dennis.
so cooked for my sisters to eat (:
then it rained heavily .
met cass and dennis .
i thought i would be late . in the end i was the first ..
lol ok so went to study at subway ssc .
it was so cold but good thing i brought my jacket along with me (:
did a few maths question ..
then talked ..
around 7 went to eat dinner and cass suddenly went off .
so me and dennis went to yishun first but cass was still at ssc .
lol ..
k then saw mav erlyn reb josh . talked awhile and waited for cass to come .
they went to occ to play pool
but we went to cass's house and dennis didnt wanna go to her hse so hadda wait under her block .
we talked alot man ..
thn cass came down and chatted awhile more . wanted to go occ but it was alrd 11 plus .
so took bus , dennis went home ,
cass came to my house .
chatted and she use my com then she left at 2.15 ..
tmr having breakfast with my sisters cass and alan , i guess ...
then going church . well okaye thats all .
my bed is calling me so nights (:

please jus tell me the truth , ill appreciate it (:

2010-04-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

PANDAS ARE MINE !!!! (:

2010-04-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

HELLO !
isnt that a cool pic up there ??
haha who's the photographer ? ME ! (:

haha k school was ok today ..
until maths lesson .
i suddenly felt so stressed up , like seriously ,.
i wanted to go home so badly ..
my mood changed totally .
hais ... im sorry peeps ..
had assembly and all .
went to np after that to buy stuff .
ate at mac and met TWO friends ..
lol went home after that .
bathe changed , went to meet dennis and alan .
they ate their dinner and met cass bryan and christine after that.
walked arnd . slacked at 921 then home ..
tmr sch will be ending like at 9.50 (:
have to go back at 4 for speech day .
oh ya , gave night study a miss today ,
really didn have mood ..
hope can really study during weekends ,
next week , MOCK EXAMS ):
hais ..
ATB la ..

pls motivate me to study ,,
thanks ...

I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU , ALOT . ):

2010-04-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

Pic taken the day after lilin's birthday (:

okay quick post..
today had school , normal lessons ..
after sch went to np with diana and hannah .
then went to 400 plus the bridge there to slack .
then to northview sec .
explored the sch and han went for her sinda.
me and diana took bus , one round.
gave ycg a miss .

I WANNA STUDY !
ANYONE WILLING TO SPEND TIME WITH ME TO STUDY ??
PLEASE (: (: (:

NO MORE DISTRACTIONS PLEASE ):

2010-04-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

hello ..
im having maths test tmr and i have no mood to study ):
haha okay today gave art class a miss again -
went to amk to eat at POPEYES and walk around.
we are so going back there ..
SAW THIS RED ADIDAS BAG ! AND I WANNA BUY IT !
its 50 bucks luh .. but its damn nice ..
me diana and hannah went gaga over there - SPORTSLINK
as they had lotsa sale ..
save save save please .
okaye .. took train back to yishun and met cass ..
talked alot and she came over to my house for awhile .
HAHA PARENTS ARE NOT AT HOME !
so yea...
frankly speaking , i felt sad just now when both my parents sent me msg -
' im gonna miss you and i love you '
you know the usual me , i wont say anyth ..
but i really felt sad ... uhh .
oh well they'll be gone for jus a week so its ouhkaye (:

ok ..
i hope for a good week !

but you just disappointed me again ):
sigh , its okay , i guess ....

i really am confused ..
but am i starting to like you ??
oh nooooooooo ......

but i love him ,,

uhh its so contradicting .. ):

2010-04-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl !
im bored ..
don feel like blogging now but jus fr the sake ...

IM IN A DILEMMA NOW .
ok both the situations have their own complications.
so i don really know what to choose ..
hais , its really hard to choose .
and why must it be this way .
do i really have to do this ? ):

okay so basically this weekend have been going out .
and had some problem with humans ytd jus because we didnt wanna lend them the basketball.
oh wells it ended up as a fight and it involved my ex-bestfriend and my grp of friends now .
and alan's dad came to the 'rescue'
well don wanna write so much abt it , ask me if u wanna know the full story .
but its seriously lame ..

today went to church and had lunch .
played pool wit dennis alan cass erlyn mav ..
then slack awhile ..

im excited.
parents wont be in sg for the next week !! (:
NO PARENTS = FREEDOM . (:

haha but have to be disciplined luh ,, MYE is coming !! ):

oh last fri gave church a miss .
went to jurong east to see lala (:

ok shall end here ,, shall blog again tmr ?? i'll see (:
bye peeps (:

Is it wrong to love a person and like another person ?

2010-04-13T19:34:00.002+08:00

HELLO !!
today's school was normal ..
had maths test ..
and english teacher got angry with the class and he left
just like that when the lesson wasnt even over ..
he came back the next lesson and he scolded us ,
but talked some sense in us luh ...

after school didnt go for art as i was just wasting my time there.
followed diana to kk hosp for her appnmnt ,
then walked around and thats it ..
bought a very super cute panda ..
its up there (: ^^

and if you think im telling everyone abt it,
think again . they know , its obvious , duhh ..

feeling guilty at the mention of your name uh ?
well i feel sad for you uhh ,,

and you ..
do you think its funny using other people's name to cover up for something that you wanna lie abt ?
you think its funny saying one thing and the next moment you do another thing ?
well let me tell you , its not ..
we're tired of your actions , your words and the way you act abt something that you're not sincere abt ..
if you think you can throw us just like that , then go ahead . cos it seems like that person is more impt to you . Soon , if everything changes , dont expect us to comfort you and stuff , cos we're tired of it ..
if thats the way you treat us , we'll treat you like that toO ..
DO UNTO OTHERS WHAT OTHERS DO UNTO YOU . get it ??
all the best to you ....

If you would ask me if i care , ill say no . But the truth is , i really do .

i love you so so so so so much !!

2010-04-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

oh well ..

sat..
basketball with bryan alan dennis cass erlyn mav alex.
erlyn showed attitude and it was irritating.
went to sakae for dinner wit jasmine joey nicole erlyn nara bao leeyin aruina puma and solongua.
played water awhile
bought present for lilin ,
it was her birthday .
wanted to surprise her but hadda go home .

sunday..
church .. northpoint wit parents ..
astons with lilin rebecca joanna bryan joshua joel mav erlyn ..
northpoint again wit bryan erlyn mav .
played at timezone and home ..

hey ,
i wont be the one initiating it AGAIN .
i am always the one ...
everytime we quarrel its cos of little things .
and you make such a big fuss abt it ...
YOUR EGO IS JUST TOO HIGH ,even you yourself know it .
please change la fgs ,,

and you , its so unbelievable that ur like that ,
i hope wat u say is real ..

2010-04-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

hais ,,
im feeling so so so so down ,
i dunno if i can continue being like this .
bakit ba lahat na lang may problema ?
ang dami kong gustong sabihin !
pero ang daming magsasalita dyan ..
paano na to ,,
pagod na pagod na ako ....
hais ....

2010-04-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

hello ppl !
the weekends pass by so fasst !
i dont like it ):
oh well i have to face it ..
okay my past week has been a studying and a fun week.
well monday to wed , was really studying like theres no tmr ,
haha had bio chem test and maths .
hope at least i can pass em , cos truthfully ,
ive not been paying attention luhh. ):
hmms ... must buck up yea..
really need motivation (: (:

okay friday ,, good friday .
went to church in the morning .
had musical and it was really nice .
headed to ksl to eat .
then went off with hannah to np ,
waited for lala to come and han went home .
rode his bike and went to ssc , hang out at starbucks .
then headed to occ, wanted to play pool but
we didnt have time as lala needed to go work ):
so headed back to np , waited for diana hann erlyn and mav ..
lala went to work alrd . so took bus to amk , walked arnd
and ate at mac ... ??
blisters were killing me and dee ):
bought things and then took 169 to yishun .
then took 800 bus .. ahahh went crazy in the bus ..(;
right diana and hannah ? hahaha ....
sorraye luh but pls appreciate it k , k ?? hha (:
then home !

ytd went bugis wit han and diana ..
then went town ..
then met cass alan dennis mav erlyn and bryan at night .
wanted to play bb but it was raining ): so went home .
and im sorry , really sorry i had to say that ,
its the truth anyway .
i really feel bad ,, but what can i do ?
i really don wanna give u false hopes ..
but we still can be close frens u know ..
uhhhhhhhhhh ,, ):

k today went to church in the morn ..
then went to 925 to eat .
then to occ to play pool .
thn walk arnd np and home ..
boring day luh ..

shld i go and study now ?
but im sleepy ,,
well guess not.
haha (:

ohlala , i love you ?? (:

2010-03-25T19:07:00.001+08:00

UGH !!
IM FREAKING PISSED !
WITH MY PARENTS !
THEY ARE SO UNREASONABLE !!

2010-03-24T16:26:00.006+08:00

hello ppl,,
THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST ,
SO PLS HAVE THE PATIENCE TO READ IT ,
ENJOY !! (:

HAHA its been a long time since ive blogged so here it goes (:

i wanna talk abt my march holidays ..
k monday ..
had english lesson but i skipped it cos i didnt wanna attend his boring lessons ,
so after that , met diana pari went for hist class ,,
after that , they had mother tongue so i went home ,,
packed my stuff and bathed all ,
met diana after her class and went to her hse to pack her stuff ,,
then bussed to np to meet aminur (:
took 965 and 89 to downtown east , hannah had chalet .
so we went to the beach side to pitch the tent , and guess what ?
it was MY VERY FIRST TIME PITCHING A TENT , A SUCCESSFUL ONE .
it wasnt hard at all ..
then left aminur there and we went to meet hannah .
bought pizza at pizza hut (duh) and we got 2 free !! (:
then met deeevona ..
then we went back to the tent and found aminur sleeping . haha
so we woke him up . we went to the heh heh place and slacked ..
aminur played the guitar and we sang along . hah
ok then we left han and aminur there , we went to buy snacks and water .
then later a grp of malay guys came , one of them was aminur friend ,
they asked fr number but didnt give .. hah
so i went to fetch lala ,,
slacked at heh heh place and dianna and devona had water parade ,,
soon devona left and lala left too ..oh we took pics first(:
ate the chocolates he gave (:
so hannah's parents wanted us to sleep in the chalet but we didn wan to .
so we sent hannah back and we slacked at heh heh place , then we took pics (:
(tuesday)
at arnd 3am plus ,, we lie down at the rock , it was so nice ..
then we went to eat mac and seriously felt like puking ,
so back to tent at 4plus and went to sleep . i couldn really sleep la ..
not used to hard ground and no pillow . hah so when the sun rose,
we went to the see side to do our morning stretching .
hah then waited for hannah to wake up .
so we took jump shots , it was seriously fun (:
then we removed the tent and headed to han chalet to put our things .
then headed to wild wild wet at 11 am ?? it was damn fun luh ..
kept going ular lah and all ..
then we slept at the wave pool , seriously .. at the shallow part of the water .
hah and then we ate and we had so much energy after that . then at 6 we left and took cab back cos diana had tuition . AND I HAD SUNBURN ! hah (:
then took bus home , unpack my things , bathe again and dead on the bed !

best thing was ,
next day (wednesday) we had maths test
and i totally couldnt do cos i was so sleepy and i didnt study for it .
then had chem after tht and slept during the lesson , oops !
after that headed to np with diana they all .
was suppose to meet cass but my freaking parents wanted me to go home to do house chores ! i reached home and had a quarrel wit my mother ,,
ugh !!
went for ycg at night .

thursday , met diana han and pari , ate breakfast at mac and went for bio class .
after that had the stupid art camp , me pari han diana and anisa kinda skipped it .
haha we didnt ask for permission to leave class but we did .
at first me han and pari were on a mission , of not bumping into slevam !
haha it was funnaye cos we did bump into him eventually , bt didnt go back class .
met diana and anisa and walked arnd sch . then went back for class , use laptop all .
oh and took many unglam pic wit tinnie and erwinna , was damn funnaye .
i never do any work at all . k then we were dismissed early and went diana hse and went home ! (:

friday ,
had maths class in the morning ,
after that i had like 2 hrs break ,,
so went diana hse to eat ,
then went back to sch cos had poa test .
diana pari went to np go print pic (:
then they came back to sch and waited for me .
then went np after that and went safra , walked in the rain luh .
then bussed home to bathe and pack my stuff ,
went to church , they screened the movie UP and had sleepover .
had indoor volleyball game and build the highest tower game using newspapers,,
my group won (:
then had supper at blk 419 at 2plus am ..
didn really feel like eating .
then we exchanged name and it was damn funnaye (:
so went back to church and we stayed up the whole night to play game (:
then had the movie review thingy ... and we were dismissed at 8 am(saturday) .. went to np
with cass and alan , dennis came too .

uhm,
actually i sensed it alrd ,, and i hope i don give u false hope cos it wont happen.
thats why im being straight forward to you ,, anw thanks for the care you are showing me (:

then went home at 12 plus , bathed and dead on the bed until next day (sunday)
sunday was a boring day .church, lunch, np,walk around,ljs, slack,cass hse , walk dog , home .

monday ,
normal lessons ,,
went bottle tree park wit cass after that .
home ,

tuesday ,
school .
aft sch han followed me to np ,
met lala went to ssc starbucks ,
studied maaths , actually he teached me and i can understand alrd !
haha wee , actually i don pay attention in class la . oops haha
thanks lala (:
then walked home from there .(:
it was a nice day (:

today , school ....
and im home now ,,
later going for ycg ,, so sayonaraaaaa (:

im falling even more in love with you (:

2010-03-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

GONNA BLOG SOON !
TIRED NOW ,,
JUS CAME BACK FROM SLEEPOVER !! (:

2010-03-11T21:49:00.004+08:00

EDITED(:

ok hello ,,
today was a fun day ,,
see that mini waterfall up there ?
me diana and aminur went there to play.
haha at first we only wanted to take off shoes and wet our feet,
but i ended up sitting down and getting damn wet ,
and the two kukus also joined me .
haha it was fun luh .
went to her grandma hse ,the baby was so cute ,
see the finger ! hahahaha (:
then went to han and dev hse to pass their stuff (:
went crazy in han hse ! hahahah ....
ok today was jus a fun day ,,
ILNURDIANAQUAH (:

and hey babe ,
pls cheer up ,,
yea he's not worth you ,
get him outta ur brain cos its jus gonna hurt you (:
ily(:

kay ,
next week is suppposedly the march holidays ,,
but but have to go sch almost everyday !
welll kinda excited for OUR plan next week ,
hope i enjoy it .... weeeees (:
and art camp ,, its such a waste of time ,
do art for that 9 10 hours ? crazy !

2010-03-09T19:32:00.001+08:00

FEELING SUPER TIRED ! ):

2010-03-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

hello !
just came back from somewhere ,,
it was kinda scary luh ... don wanna mention as
some ppl will get into trouble .
haa
ok getting reeally paranoid now..
but still wanna go la. . hah
it was fun and scary at the same time .
something happened ,, hiyo ):
SCARY !
post tmr ..?? haha
see ya (:

2010-03-04T20:31:00.004+08:00

hello ppl.
im okay now ,,
jus having blocked nose which makes me sound like im closing my nose when i talk.
and sore throat and cough , phlegm stuck in my throat .
and jus as it was really stuck in my throat, ms dimas had to call me to say something during class when everyone was waiting for my answer , haha but i couldnt shout ,
you know, when your phlegm gets stuck in ur throat , you cant really talk , so yea(:
sorraye guys !

ok i don think i shld elaborate on the matter which happened las tues,,
it was such a traumatic incident that i couldnt sleep that night ,
imagine seeing it with your own eyes but couldnt really help much ? hais ):
my mother had to put me to sleep but i jus kept crying and thinking abt it .
overall i jus had 2 hrs sleep and went to sch next day ..
im just happy that she's fine now .
im so touched by her , she's so strong !
ill be praying for you . and get well asap !! (:

( haha our sch's new councellor is not good ! LOL )

she said it was a dejavu , i was jus thinking maybe .....

2010-02-28T09:09:00.002+08:00

hey ! im rushing for time now but i jus have to let this out.
Im pissed with u, and hurt too .
how can you say that ? do you think by saying that , you can help me ?
well, no. thanks for brining my self esteem down.
you've hurt me so much but i just cant let you know, i mean its hard
for me to tell you cos you'll probably get real mad and for all i know,
you might send me back to philippines!
well tell me, is it useful for me if you send us back there o study ?
think carefully. i have been studying here for almost 9 yrs
and now you say you wanna send us back ? then wat for in the first place
bring us here to study ? oh wait you only care abt yrself thats why we're here.
and since we're alrd here, we have to follow singapore's style dont we ?
yea so just f-ing stop comparing us to what you were back then in philippines.
its diff here in singapore ok ! if u expect us to follow what you were,
then dream on cos that wont happen. That was in the philippines for gods sake!
and pls la, stop comparing us to your siblings cos we are not them! we have our own freaking life and we have our own way of living it! If you cant follow that, too bad!
and for you info, im taking my o levels this yr. if you freaking want me to do well, why do u still wan me to do housework when i am so busy and tired of school?
talking abt sch, lets talk abt ART !
YEA ART !
you know i had some issue with that teacher,
you knew he was lying and you also know that its cos of him i lost interest in art.
yes you knew everything ! but are you helping me ? NO!!!
you just freaking care abt your face, jus cos christine saw you coming to sch to talk to tcher, you felt ashamed and embarrassed ? for wat ? i shld be the one !
and pls stop bragging to mee that you helped solve the issue with him
but hey FYI, no matter wat u do it wont be erased from me.
and pls also stop bragging that u wasted ur time coming to sch. hey, you had the choice to come or not. but you chose to. so freaking stop blaming me for wasting your 'precious' time. cos if i were you,i wont go.
pls la, make things easier for me can .
im alrd so stressed out wit this art..... and you jus have to add on ?
by bringing my self esteem down ?
well thanks so much ! see ah, if u think abt it, at the stating of the yr, i forced my self to do. i put in effort . i really did ! but it just cant work out !
so tcher caled you last week, u talked to me nicely so i actually bothered to ask dad for ideas. and yes he did. i tried drawing them but as usuali stopped . why ?
i just cant do it ! but you see i actually bothered jus that u cant see cos it was during sch hours . so stop telling me you dont see me putting effort cos u dont see me 24 hrs pls !!
and who says art is easy ?
tell me ,,,, only you .
cos you dont have the experience of doing this kind of art.
you're only good at one art , the performing arts- the drama queen .. RIGHT ??
oh well, if art is easy, why the hell wld ppl fail art and why wld i feel so stressed up? tell me !!!! and why do u have the mindset that i cant go to poly ? well i'll prove you wrong !
jus cos im not taking mother tongue and i wanna drop art, doesnt mean i cant go poly ! if u wan us to do well , why make us come here study in the first place ?
if you dont even have the confidence that we'll do well ??!!
GOSH !! you're just making our lives miserable!
let me tell you this, im super freaking stressed up !
you jus have to ruin my life !
and thanks so much for not supporting me
thanks for only caring abt ur image.
i will not forget them ,
THANKS !!!

thoughts of s______ ):

2010-02-23T20:15:00.005+08:00

k hey people !
long time no update ,
lazy eh .
haha k random pics luh .
haha

k today skipped training as i had leg cramps ..
had fun at diana hse today ..
hannah was there too .
hhahhh (:

have alot of tests now ,
and damn im not really studying for them ,
ely ! can u be more disciplined ??
haha talking to myself again .
k err gonna study for poa test soon
so bye (:

jus wanna tell you this,
pls respect my decision and you have no rights to get angry,,
so jus get the f-ing hell out of my life if u cant get that in ur mind.
and pls learn to treat us, ladies like ladies and not toys to play with.
bye bastard !

2010-02-15T20:49:00.001+08:00

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2010-02-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

ouch my toes !!!

errr sorry no pic !
today was a fun day !
elaborate more tmr ??
AKU MALAS LA .
AKU NAK TIDO !! HAHA(:

2010-02-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
just came back from FRASER'S SUITE !
haha damn cool uh its like a hotel ,
but its a suite , with kitchen living room blaaa.
hah but only my parents are sleeping there .
until tmr (:
yayy !! hahh (:
haha swam at the pool there jus now .
anw,,
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !
AND HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR (:

errr ytd watched PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF !
IT WAS VERY NICE !!! i don mind watching again (:
played pool after that ?

and so sch was ok in the morning.
the cny concert was the best .
i mean from all the 4 years , this yr was the best
wohhoo !!

hahhah ok la ..

err you're really very contradicting .
i don understand you .
but im still happy i can still have you as a friend .
but whatever you said, i dont think it will happen.
cos i wont let it happen .
hmms ,

had a very weird dream jus now .
its abt you and you and the three kukus .
hah ok la stop here .

bye humans !

2010-02-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

okay i can say today is a better day for me .
went to sch early for peer tutoring .
had lessons . bio- i prefer ms teo to ms dimas !
ok aya lazy to tell abt sch .
had assembly and peer tutoring after .
thn had training . it was seriously fun today .
seemed like coach was in good mood jus now (:
played match luh and she played along
with us together with grace ! haha funny la (:
i like today's training.
hope future trainings can be like today (:

oh well i just read ur msg -
which made me feel more sad .
hais should i msg u or not ?
hais !! but for what ??
oh shits !!

hais hais hais ): ): ):

you seemed so perfect .
but then , i was wrong .

2010-02-10T17:50:00.003+08:00

okayyeee people .
listen up .
im sorry for being so moody today ,
i seriously didnt like it too .
will try to be better tmr k .
but pls understand ,
somethings just happened thats why im like this .
im trying to forget evrything since its not worth my time
which i foolishly fell for .
listen , i wont fall for anymore jokes .
ive had enough .
ok i dont wanna get into details la .

just wanna say ,
thanks for everything .
your the same person who made me smile so much
and yet the next moment the one who made me become so sad.
thank you so much ,

you bastardo . (:

okaye enough !
thanks 3 kukus for always making me smile
and being there for me .
and for my 'husband' 'suyang' 'mummy' 'sister' and my classmates
for trying to always cheer me up.

really appreciated .
love you all .

screwed all my tests
didnt study cos i was too sad.
oh wells !
gotta buck up ):

2010-02-07T20:54:00.002+08:00

hey people .
today had church .
had service .
attended filipino fellowship,
my valentines story .
it was nice .
ytd was a tiring day .
had flag day,
netball (we won),
slacked ,
home ,
bathe ,
dead on the bed .
this morning almost couldnt wake up .

okaye , seriously this shitty feeling is sucking up my mood !
ive been getting so easily angered and i dont like it .
SERIOUSLY , PPL PLEASE TRY NOT TO MAKE ME ANGRY !
ive been really having mood swings .
i just let out my feelings ,
to who ? to my imaginary friend .
well sorry if i give youu attitude ,
bear wit me .
trying my best to stay cooool .

TO RANDOM PEOPLE :
(ERRR JUST GOTTA SAY THIS ONCE,
SO LISTEN .
DONT EVEN BOTHER ASKING WHO ARE THE PPL,
COS I WONT TELL YOU.)

-stop being a bitch can ? if you have nothing better to say, just STFU !
-you and your freaking attitude, it sucks.
-stop irritaing my life . i knew _____ even before you did ! stop acting as if _____'s yours
-you are a slut, admit it.
-you changed so much , u shouldnt have done that.
-youre getting on my nerves.
-u shld be careful wit ur words, ur hurting more and more ppl.
-stop irritaing me with your words and stop forcing me to do something i lost interest in !
-i wanna talk to you but i guess youre still too immature.
-i wanna clear things wit you.
-stupid dog ! so noisy !
-you said it was a waste of time and see who's doing it now ? you , damn it !
-pls care abt what i feel !

-I miss you , alot .

2010-02-05T18:34:00.002+08:00

hello peepoleh !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN CHNG KAISIANG ! (TODAY)

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG WEIXIANG ! ( 2/2/10)

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN ! (2/2/10)

im currently at cassandra house now (:
doing somethings .
going to church soon (:

sorry peepoleh if im getting more easily angered nowadays .
i dont know why and ive got alot of things to say to random ppl.
maybe i will write everything in my next post !
haha sorraye peepoleh and
SAYONARA!!!!! (:

2010-01-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

hello peepoleh,
okay im like blogging more often now uh,
why ? i dont know.
oh wait , maybe i know ??
well not sure .
i just know that im getting more lazy
in doing homework and i seriously
have no motivation alrd ,
esp in art, oh wait
its cos of that freak .
yees,, cos of him i find art a bore
and an irritating subject that wastes my time !
seriously, it really wastes time.
its like you have to do it everyday
but i dont see the need in doing art,
i dont even know why i chose art,
oh wait its cos i had no choice .
DANG .

ok imagine waking up so early,
going to sch everyday,
having so much homework,
school ends at 4,
and still have to go for training,
how tiring can that be ?
i bet you dont know.
let me tell you, its really tiring,
you reach home,
you bathe and whatsoever and the next thing ??
you feel sleepy !
how to do art when i cant even finish my homework?
like homework is more impt , duhh .
and i also have my church things like 4 times a week ?
how laaaa ? art how ?
i just cant squeeze it all in the time that i have.
yaaa time management, im trying okaye !
you think its easy ? be in my shoes la see how you can.

oh and thanks esp to MR CHRIS
for trying your best to motivate me in doing art.
sorry if we keep giving you problems.
we'll try our best laa (:

haha seriously, i got freaked out by mr chris and mr fahmi!
and mr chris says he'll buy me ben and JERRY'S ice cream (:
heh heh ! (:
mr fahmi ?? he gave me the creeps.
haha both of them talked to me la and
they said somethings that really shocked me.
HAHOO!! its between us la. hah . don kaypohhhhh (:

okaye !!
haha sent diana off just know.
went to her hse pack things then go airport.
gosh i really gonna miss her !
( missing her now la ): )

DIANA KUKU !
take care aite ?
come back safely and enjoy urself there.
imy la and and,
nur diana quah , i love you laaaaa (: (:

haha this post is getting long,
shall stop here.
tmr gonna suffer again,
oh wells , see ya asses and hotties ! (:

2010-01-27T17:26:00.001+08:00

What is this I'm feelin'
I just can't explain
When you're near
I'm just not the same
I'm tryin' to hide it
Try not to show it
It's crazy
How could it be

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels

When you said hello
I looked in your eyes
Suddenly, I felt good inside
Is this really happenin'
Or am I just dreaming
I guess, it's true
I can't believe

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
So this is love

Doesn't matter where I am
Thoughts of you still linger in my mind
No matter what time of day
I've really, really
Fallen for you

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
So this is love

2010-01-26T21:20:00.002+08:00

haha im bored. second post,
just adding more pictures (:
but all pics are in fb la (:
see ya asses ! (:

2010-01-26T20:33:00.004+08:00

haluuuu peepoleh !
long time never update right ? haha
sorraye been too busy (:
okay pictures up there were taken on sunday
at marina barrage .
it was a fun day yo even though my kite flew away.
haha heh heeh (:
well last weeek was having bad stomach ache ):
but im ok now , hah (random)
lol ive been hanging out with my beloved 3 kukus!
they're loved by me la (:
uhm well today had sch and boring lessons
homework waiting for me .
test tmr . not prepared . ugh !!

oh well heard you'll be gone for 6 months !
hope you'll do fine and i'll miss you.
(actually i do miss you now)
ugh ! take care and ...

i'll wait for you (:

2010-01-19T19:16:00.002+08:00

HEY peepohs !
school was okay uh .
went for training and it was slack.
i didn even change to sports attire .
why ? coach couldnt see us, sec 4's,
WE WERE INVISIBLE . (only to her)

haha yea ytd was damn ultra happy ,,
but after something ,
i became moody today . ):
sorraye .
hais i dont even know why im feeling like this .
i dunno why i miss you so much ,
when we jus met few days ago .
im worried for u , hmms ):
i keep calling ur phone , in case someone pick up,
but naaaahh ): ...
hmms .. i hope to hear from u soon ,
cos baby i will wait for you .

2010-01-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

HEH HEH !
OHMYGAWD !
i am so the happy . HAHOOO !!! (:

okays well friday went to lasalle college,
sch was nice ,
after that went to city hall bought somehtings
then went to french class to pass letter .
went home bathe changed .
met pari diana han .
went to downtown for anisa's party !
it was coolness !
many ppl there uh .
bought xxx and xxx .
saw lotsa cockroaches ! me and diana kept jumping.
HAHOO !
then uh ....
FUN PART .
arnd 11pm, we decided to go to the beach side .
they were scared so they wanted to go to the bbq pit
where there were lights .
so sat , chatted took pics .
there were a bunch of malay guys beside us singing.
so we sang along .
they sang super nice uh .
and took pics with them ,
haha met new friend uh (: , jerry .
HEH HEH .
they all so cute la .
haha talked with them.
then number fly fly ( you know uh ?)
haha (:
was ther till 1+ 2+ am?
then pari dad fetch us back to yishun .
walked han and diana home .
reached home at 3 ?
haha text some humans and went to sleep .
(: (: (:

sat went to diana hse,
then to sports , played netball
lost by one .
slacked after that .

sun went to church .
alan hse after that.
sorry for not meeting you ,
haave reasons .

and i know you have reasons too .
i only knew it today ):
i feel so guilty now .
im sorry . now i dont know how are you .
hmm im sad ):
but im happy too .
confused la .. but hope you'll be fine la ...
im waiting for you (:

but is this real or just another crush ?

shit you dog face .
i feel so disgusted wit you .
how can you say that to my friend !
you think what , you perfect isit ?
stupid brat !

2010-01-14T20:10:00.004+08:00

okay . finally can use the com alrd.
have been busy with homework and extended lessons .
yes ive been doing my homework !
yay me!
well seeing those ppl getting their o level result
made me so scared .
saw some of them really getting disappointed
and they cried ! i could feel the tense uh .
i really wanna study hard !!
i reaally have to catch up on my last yr's work
because i didn really pay attention
and its haunting me now.
oh well , its too late to regret .

went for training today and
i can say that
IT IS THE MOST SLACKEST TRAINING I'VE BEEN TO.
really it was super slack today ,,,
cos..............................
yeaa..

yes finally thursday is going to be over soon.
really looking forward to weekends.
will be going to chalet tmr !
yayaness !! (:

OH AND BTW,

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO :

GRACE ONG (12/01/10)
,
ANISA PARVEEN(14/01/10)
&
JOANNE THUM (14/01/10)
!!

hope you enjoy and god bless !

DIANA PARI AND HANNAH !
must really study hard k !
lets go BK and study tgt !!!
(: (: (:
love you durlings !

IN CASE YOU DONT KNOW , I CAN BE EVIL TOO (:

2010-01-08T15:15:00.003+08:00

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HAHAHAHA(:
well okay school is ok but boring.
wanna pay attention in class but too sleepy.
trying my best not to sleep uh (:

well ok on wed went city hall , somerset and orchard again
with diana pari hannah .
then had ycg at night .
i love the mongolians (:

yesterday went to nyp for open house.
it was coolness ok !
haha some courses i might consider-
tourism and business management ?
i dont know . only went to 3 sch cos
had no time . well yea ..
after that waited for diana they all to come back
sch as they missed their bus ?
then went to np buy art stuff ! -WASTE MONEY !
ahah met cass and bryan for awhile then home (:

today sch was ok .
art ! all guys from art class and 5 girls-
me pari hannah che li and shi min .
were separated from the rest ! damn that
S(CUBE)B!(CUBE)
haha only some will know what it means.
jahaha.

wells okay gonna meet cass they all soon ?
going hof tonight .
alrights bye asses and babes !

AND AND THANKS FARIS FOR SAVING MY BOOKS !
tyvm ! (:

2010-01-05T18:55:00.003+08:00

pic during holi .
cycled at ecp for 4 hours .
all pics are in fb . (:

hey!
second day of school !
was ok ..
was feeling super sleepy but i forced myself not
to sleep in class .
although there are still no lessons im alrd feeling sleepy .
im still in holiday mood !
and siti is not gonna let me sleep in class alrd !
haha must study !
she's gonna be my motivator ! yay thanks sayang ! (:

oh had some boring talks and attire check AGAIN !
how long is this gonna be ? pfft !!
okay met diana in the 811 bus and went to sch.
tied her hair and bla !
whhhooos !!!

haha i hate school !!!

after sch went to ssc with diana hannah pari .
then went orchard and somerset too .
had so much fun with them !
so much of laughing ! hahaha
thankssss uuuuu !! (:

I DREAD THE FEELING OF GOING TO SCHOOL ):

right stop flirting you bitch !
i hate you .
i know i have no right but still ..... !
u are a slut ! darn u .

oh wells,
pretending someone is not there is really difficult .
why isit so ?
DANG IT .
im trying to be strong !!!
but its difficult .
hais .

hais . im so down . this is so hard ! i hate it !
i may look happy and strong . but im not .
cos i don wanna show im weak .
but at times i cant take it .
its just so hard ):

2010-01-04T18:22:00.003+08:00

finally i can update blog .
haha was too busy going out that i didnt have
time to update .
and school starts today !
im sad .
o levels are coming .
cant really have fun .
achievers will start next week .
means cant go out alrd ):
booooohoo !!

I LOVED MY HOLIDAYS !
ENJOYED IT TO THE MAX !
THANKS TO ALL THOSE PPL WHO MADE IT FUN (:

my cousins came and had so so so much fun with them !
i love them so much .
sad that they're back in the philippines ):
hope to really see them soon .
(:

TODAY IS THE FIRST TIME IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE THAT I WAS CAUGHT FOR SHORT SKIRT !!!! ITS NOT EVEN SHORT LA . the teacher anyhow ..

toopid teacher .
haha but it was funnaye .
first she caught me for my fringe !
she said i had feelers . whatever .
she told me to put pin i said don wan .
then she asked me to put hairband and i said don wan .
lol so next she looked at my skirt
she even measured it wit her fingers ! lol
then she said you shorten ur skirt right ?
and i said no it was my mother .
then next thing i know the ppl around me were laughing !
haha but i was never caught for my skirt during sec 1 , 2 and 3 !
until sec 4 then tell me its short ? dumb dumb
haha lols anw its ok la . not . haha

hmms !! SCHOOL IS A NIGHTMARE !
actually , not really . met some wonderful friends
that brighteneed up my life .
thank you (:

hah ok thats all peeps !
school again tmr and for th rest of the year ! ):
JY to all (:

2009-12-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

okay cycled for 4 hours today !
had fun !
will upload again tmr ??
yea nights peeps !

2009-12-20T21:59:00.002+08:00

hey !
pics for black and white christmas !
weee it was so fun yea !
i only uploaded some pics ! the rest are all going
to be in facebook .
hmms have been really going out with han and diana
nowadays .
went to east coast to cycle with them last thurs !
i really enjoyed myself !
never did i regret being friends with them !
they make my life shine , thanks lots
diana and hannah ! love you loads !!
so yea we sat on the rock while it was raining .
it was nice and cold !
gonna go again on tues i guess ???
oh well tmr will be going with church peeps !
im excited ! hope to really have fun with them !! (:

black and white christmas was totally awesome .
we won alot of awards !! weeeeeeee
really thank god (:
my ycg dressed up as pantomime yea !
coolness can ? haha the event was just so loved.
so sad some ppl missed it .
hhaa kinda sad it was over ):

hmm today had church ..
had main service and caroling .
then had filipino fellowship .
i was one of the judges for the food !
haha all the food were great and i had
a hard time judging !
haha filipino food is just the best !! (:

well then went home after that ,,
played xbox wit sis and now blogging ! (:
facebook is irritaing me ,
dont let me upload pic la . grr ):
hmmmmmssss .

im having mood swing !
i hate it .
sorry ppl if i dont say bye when chatting wit you . (HAHA)
sorry if i get irritated and angry easily .
please bear with me .
TYVM !

i havent touch my homework , NOT EVEN ONE !
IM SERIOUSLY DEAD .
and stupid YSS !!!! throw away books in our locker ??
think what ? free to throw isit !!!
dumbass sch !!
my parents are going to complain !
watch out ah !

and stoopid cheena ppl !!
you have proven to me that you are deserved to be hated !
stare stare and talk bad ? act big
just cos got tatoo ?? what the heaven la !
hate you to the MAX ! and your ceeeena accent ,
totally sucks la !!!!!!!!!
LIKE SERIOUSLY !

THANK YOU PPL WHO HAVE MADE ME HAPPY !!
ALL THOSE CHEER UP WISHES AND MORE!!
THANK YOU !!!!!
LOVE YOU LOADS !!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE CHRISTMAS !
IM SORRY I HAVE NO MONEY TO BUY PRESENTS LIKE LAST YEAR !
SORRY , IM TOTALLY BROKE.
I TRIED WORKING BUT NAAAAHHHH ..
MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL ! (:

oh well ,,, thanks lot for everything .
im suffering cos of you .

all i want for christmas is you

2009-12-18T14:00:00.002+08:00

heylo !
today is friday and its black and white christmas alrd !
okay just blogging for awhile cos im going to cass hse soon .
yesterday had so much fun with loves - diana and hannah.
will elaborate when i have time .
well gtg now ! bye ......... (:

2009-12-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING .
YOU LEFT SO MANY MEMORIES !
AND I BADLY MISS YOU .
I WONDER HOW YOU ARE NOW .
I STIL DONT KNOW THE REASON
AND I HOPE TO KNOW IT SOON !

2009-12-10T21:19:00.002+08:00

THIS POST WILL BE ABIT LONG.
READ AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU (:
HAHA

hmm its thursday night ,
whats up uh ?
i dont really see many ppl online
like how i used to .
oh well , had fun for the past few days !
i'll talk abt today first .
met lilin marie tristan imran jessica joey at
11am with erlyn .
we went to eat at charls jr ???? at dhoby .
then went to mustafa , we thought things there
wld be cheap , but it wasnt .
so went to bugis !
walked around . bought somethings that we wld use
for BLACK AND WHITE CHRISTMAS .
then walked arnd and then
me erlyn tristan and imran went to vivo city.
met her family and RJ !!!!!!
hoho ! i love RJ (: (: (:
hahaha then took pic with them and walked arnd .
at arnd 7 took train bk to yishun .
then to BK then home ! (:
tiring day ! we took train so many times that
im sick of taking trains ! haha

wednesday ,,,
cleaned the house and met cass and fazeela
at semb . walked arnd and arnd .
then went to ssc to search for stuff .
then stayed awhile to watch the care bare thingy .
lol then went to ycg .
it was fun . discussed abt christmas things .
home arnd 11 .

tuesday ,,,,
was a seriously fun day .
met han and diana at 2.
went to city hall to walk walk walk !
diana jus hadda make us walk one big round .
thanks ah ! (:
then took train to payar lebar .
wanna go east coast but not sure how .
so called ppl .
say take 13 , so we took .
we didnt know where to alight eh !!!
so we thought by looking arnd to see the sea
would be a help , but it wasnt .
haha . during the journey , there was one stop
where alot of ppl alighted but we didn
and that was where we were suppose to alight !
goodness ! haha
so we ended up at the interchange somewhr .
and we asked the driver how to go .
and he told us he will bring us there .
so we took 13(the same bus) .
he told us to alight somewhere and walk all the way str .
so we did that .
we were near but we were far .
haha it was the highway and we wanted to take cab
but cant. so went arnd the blocks and found a cab .
so yea went to mac there , ate dinner . walked around .
and and CHARLES fr SI was at the cafe .
diana and han wanted to talk to him
and they made me go inside and call him out
for awhile .
so i did . i was kinda nervous . haha
then he shook our hand .
haha then walked and slacked .
then arnd 9 took cab back .
was seriously laughing like mad in the cab .
haha . met anisa for awhile ...
then home !!!!

okay this is really getting long .
hmmmsss.........

LORD , GIVE ME STRENGTH !

give us your strength , lord
because sometimes things get tough ,
and we are ready to quit .

give us your love , lord
because sometimes people reject us ,
and we are tempted to hate .

give us your eyes , lord
because sometimes life gets dark,
and we lose our way .

give us your courage, lord
because often we are put under pressure,
and its hard to do what is right .

give us yourself, lord
because our hearts were made for you,
and we will not rest until we rest in you .

not gonna let anything ruin my life !

2009-12-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

life is a total bullshit !

2009-12-03T21:09:00.004+08:00

heys heys !
guys !
gonna tell you that you
should stop playing around with me ,
if you understand .
IM NOT A TOY , YOU FUCKING BASTARD !
oh well ,,,,,,

today woke up 8 plus . kept snoozing my
alarm cos i felt damn sleepy .
i cant really sleep for the past few nights ,
insomnia !?
dang , i hate it i always feel so sleepy
but i cant sleep ! gosh .
well met diana at 10 ?? went to pari house
she wanted to have a 'makeover' .
she changed her hairstyle .
she cut concave and rebonded it .
haha see class blog (2e8) if you wanna see .
had fun luh .
ate kfc with them ! grr .....
cabbed home .
thanks ppl !

kept looking for you , how stupid can i get ?
dang , i just gotta say i miss you , ALOT ! ):
i dunno whats up now , i guess i just have to wait .
wanna see if you really are making me your toy ,
or is it really the end ?
after all those words that you said ,
i believed you ,
i hope its not the end .

2009-12-01T19:20:00.005+08:00

heys pictures for the past few days.
had a mini picnic on sunday with
some beloved friends of mine !
really had fun .
hope we can always have a gathering like this.
WITH FRIENDS !
hais , i love my friends
just realised how i can treasure them more !
sometimes , the closest ones to you are
the ones who hurt you the most !
well , i strongly believe in that !
experienced it a few times .
its just so saddening when you're so close
to the person and he's the one who hurts you .
argh !!
i dont know whats up with you .
one moment you're so nice and the next ??
so different .
should i just give up ?
but i know i cant ,
this is so shitty !
DANG this complicated life !
):

i just love you too much that its so hard to let go

2009-11-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

2nd post of the day!
BUBBLES!
they're just so nice.
it makes me feel so refreshed .
seeing it for that moment feels like
i'll forget all my problems .
i wanna see lots and lots of bubbles !

i want to see it.
hope its from you (:

2009-11-26T18:34:00.002+08:00

okay okay im seriously bored right now.
currently at jessica's house listening
to those children sing their lungs out !
haha its seriously funny .
you know how profesional singers train
before they sing ?
where they will go ahhhhh-hhh hhhaaaaaaa.
ala i dunno la.. haha you know how righhhhttt??
haha
well anws,,
went to church early today to help pack
goodie bags for tmr's color friday.
was fun lei.. haha
then had lunch and off to jessica's hse.
i mean jasmine's house
( now that jess is living somewhere else ) haha
then talked crap la and
made some funky glasses for tmr also .
was kinda cool ya noe.
haha .
they're really singing nice !
haha still listening to them sing now (:

lols well,
i wanna go out and have fun !
haha.
so sad someone just have to be sick
i really pity you. but
i cant do anything ):
im really sorry .
hope you're doing fine .

i got into such a mess.
i dont know what to do.
i just cant possibly forget everything.
i shouldnt have let myself fall .
GOD never said life would be easy.
he just promised it would be worth it.
hmms ok shall stop here .
hope i'll have some nice pics to upload (:
well , thats it.
bye ! (:

2009-11-23T14:53:00.002+08:00

hey people !
sorry for currently privating my blog .
kinda busy lately .
no time to update blog .
will update with a proper post next time (:
bye .

2009-11-12T19:36:00.002+08:00

hais.

i kept waiting,

but nothing.

how long is this gonna be ?

i wanna be there in your arms again.

or i guess im just too paranoid .

its not my fault for being like this .

you made me be like this.

i dont know what to believe now .

i just wanna hear from you again.

soon i hope.

i wanna talk to you,

but it seems like you don wan to.

i feel so discouraged .

hais.

2009-11-12T12:17:00.003+08:00

why do you have to be like that ?
you know it feels like history is repeating itself ?
wow !

i wannnnnnnaaaaaaaaaa stop this ....
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees !

haha im bored la.

entertain me, anyone ?

im going mad, i guess .

heheheheeeeeeeee !

water.............

i can see them ..

haha coolness la !

drop drop drop drop !!

ehhehhhhhhehhhehhhhhhh....

going insane la i guesss..

sorry bye !

too much

2009-11-10T11:09:00.004+08:00

hey kay think this post is gonna be long
so be patient and read .

well first of all,
got back my results like 2 weeks
ago ? it was horrible seriously .
wannaa see the evidence ?
- from class position 6 to 28 !
- from level position 52 to 157 !
see how bad that is ?!?!?!?!?!
i cried ! well, its all my fault.
being too complacent just doesnt take
you anywhere ! it pulls you down.
not only talking abt studies uh .

hmms,, okay have been hanging out
with parimala and diana more lately !
they're fun okay ! though sometimes
pari is too much ??
but but when she makes a fool out of herself,
its funnaye okay ..
just ytd went out with them
plus cassandra and hannah joined us .
haha it was funnaye k .
was suppose to go with them early in the morning
but i had three lessons ytd .
so i attended first lesson .
wasnt really feeling good so i didn attend the
two other lessons .
i shld jus have pon-ed wit diana they all
in the first place .
so went home . did dome house chores .
after that went to meet cass at np .
took train to city hall .
met up with pari diana hannah zali and zul .
pari watched the kumar video and
it was so funnaye ! everyone ws laughing at her .
haha cos the video was funny too ! lol
but her reaction ws damn funny ! haha
kay so walked around around and ended up eating !
at mac ! haha i dropped my burger ! haha sad case !
but only the bread la so its okay . haha
then walked walked
then took train back to yishun
walked around np ..
then mother called and she was
super angry , she kept shouting on the phone
like some mad woman ! she's angry
just cos i never tell her i go out ?
hais she's just so unreasonable !

hais.. well my imaginations are seriously getting wild !
hnd ko alam kung mahal mo pa ako hanggang ngayon .
ang alam ko lang, mahal na mahal kita !
ng sobrang sobra.
lagi kita napapaginipan kase miss na kita .
parang hnd mo na ako kinakausap ?
ang tagal na ever since lumabas tayo !
gusto ko na mayakap ka ! miss na kita !
hais nsaktan ako sa sinabi mo nung isang araw.
sana marealise mo na ang pinakaimportante
sa relationship ay meron communication lagi .
sana lang .......

christmas is coming and i cant wait..
last year went to church wit three huge big bags,
like santa claus ! haha
but maybe this year wont be giving so much .
have not much money !):

hmms i wanna see the lights at orchard road.
i wanna go wit you !(:
haha i love christmas !
just very sad that cant celebrate with relatives
in philippines . I LOVE NOCHE BUENA !! (:

2009-11-09T20:24:00.003+08:00

heys ppl sorry for not posting.
have been really lazy la !
hais been not really feeling good..
my emotions just goes haywire !

problems with my family and friends !
hais.

holidays just doesnt feel like holidays ):

many things in mind to write ,
but once i start typing ,
cant rmb what i wanna write .
hais really sad case .
sorry uh gotta end here .
no mood to continue .
bye !

2009-10-26T20:07:00.002+08:00

more photos on facebook!
will talk crap next time !
bye peeps!

2009-10-20T20:07:00.002+08:00

PISSED !!
YES IM PISSED WITH YOU KNOW WHO !
that stupid fucktard selvam !
i dont care wether the hell you see this!
i hope you do !
i REALLY HATE you, nothing can ever change that now !
you have proven to me that i shld hate you more .
and never stop hating you.
thanks for the WONDERFUL mark you gave me .
thanks for all the nagging and the shouting !
thanks for not believing what i always say.
thanks for the 'care' you showed.
what a really 'wonderful' teacher !
i guess you could be the bestest of the bestest teacher!
one more thing, you're bias, some of them may not have the
power to see tat,
but we can ! whatever bullshit !
just 3 words, I HATE YOU
k shall stop talking abt you,
i dont wan you to get more popular
and i don wanna show off your kindess anymore.
bye fucktard !
oh one more thing, why must you always punish ppl
who never do anything ? damn you !

hmms!!!
got back some of my results today.
was disappointed .
almost cried but controlled it !
damn......... hmms
anw, thanks for cheering me up.
much loves!(:

hmms,, after school had poa amazing race briefing.
having the race tmr after sch.
went home bathe changed .
met cass . talked alot !!
and went to sembawang to collect her thing .
wanna go shopping soon man !
just bought three tops ytd,
and im bankrupt ):
ya ytd had a family day.
went to ssc to eat at astons !
the food was ok. then chilled at starbucks.
bought caramel frappe ! (: love it..
then walked around np wit sis and was home arnd 10.
well thats it. this post is getting long..
shall end here,
sayonara peeps (:

2009-10-18T21:32:00.001+08:00

HAD FUN TODAY!!!(:
LOVE TODAYYYYYYYY!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!
(:

2009-10-16T13:16:00.004+08:00

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EXAMS ARE OVER! (officially)
yayness! haha(:

well first of all, i wanna wish diana
A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!(:
hope you enjoyed it(i knew you did)
heh really glad to have such a friend like you!

yesterday was a fun hilarious day!
went to school and met panyusa!
she came to school at 7.30 ! haha she forgot that
it was thursday and sch started late.
so she was all alone! haha poor thing.
so i came to her rescue! i cam like at 8.10?
haha.. so had assembly then
up to class and the art paper started!
pari and diana were beside me and they were making so much
noise! it was fun though. haha
we laughed alot.
and and, on wednesday! i woke up early to do my art know!
i rushed three pages in one day and my hands were aching!
and my parents just had to make me do house chores!
was super pissed luh! so anws, my sister says
they'r not bad! heh rushed work leh!
hees!!! and so did my 5th prep work in class,
(one pathetic rose) and my final piece which
i really dunno what i drew! lol.
haha and it ended and the class became
noisy la, throwing paper balls!!?? haha(:

kk then after that, stayed in school for a while.
waited for deeeevona!
so me pari hannah dee and dianaa went to causeway.
took 856 there and the bus journey was so long.
felt like sleeping bbut didnt.
and yea when we reached, wanted to eat at
pizzahut but but they had lack of workers so
had to wait for very long.
so the birthday girl changed mind and
went to swensens instead.
then then we sat,,, diana saw ballons
and she die die want one! PURPLE!
lol so hannah granted her tat wish. lol
so ate la and had chocolate ice cream float!
was super duper nice! haha
was very full after that,
and then we had so mcuh fun there.
we laughed like we just came out of imh.
haha pari the joker!
had so much fun la!
and diana! thanks for the treat!(:
then walked arnd and took 856 back again.
fell asleep! lol
then diana walked me and devona home!
thanks uh! (:
love u! (:
haha thats it!
so looong!!!!!(:

2009-10-13T13:17:00.002+08:00

POA paper one done!
screwed it!
now left with art.
and i have no school tmr! wees(:
today met up with eksan to eat at mac, breakfast.
had pancakes! they're the best!(:
went to sch up to class..
studied poa. waited for time to pass....
and the paper started.
half an hour and im done with it.
slept.
had briefing on the poa amazing race.
then home..
hmm,, speaking of amazing race,
why did it have to be cancelled?(for my church)
was looking forward to it. but its okay.(:
yes.. holidays, they're coming!
cant wait.... but my results,
i'll be lectured by my parents):
oh well , its too late to regret!
shall do well next year!!! (:
O levels!):
hmms..... thats it..
bye peeps!

each day im growing to even love you more!

2009-10-12T10:48:00.004+08:00

hehe finally a post after so long.
well for me, its as if exams are over even though
there are two more papers.
POA paper 1 and art..
don really need to study for that..
speaking of art, think i gonna fail.
im suppose to have 6 prep work
and i have only done one.):
well its ok la.
i don really care abt art.

hmm todays chem paper was easier then what
i expected. Though i really didnt know last part
that much. hmm it was ok overall.
went home after tat and here i am blogging..
hmm he was held back by aunty gwen.
his mother came to school too.
hope he gets his phone back and don get
0 for physics.
hmms........................................

nagaalala ako ):

hmm..
totally screwed bio paper.
it was very difficult.):
poa and maths too.
hais.
guess my eoy is going to pull
down my overall grade.
hais):

sana tayong dalawa ay magtagal.
mahal kita.
wag ka na sanang gagawa ng mga bagay
na ikakalunkot ko.
sana alam mo...

its too late to regret

2009-10-03T11:52:00.002+08:00

haha photo during jessica's wedding last last thursday.
i guess there are more just waiting for ppl to
give me the pictures(:

well yesterday had english exam.
it was okay. not so difficult.
had remedial after school....
after that met cass and her mother to go buy
her stuff, it was her birthday yesterday.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CASS! (:
haha then went for hof and then
planned a surspise party for her.
she already suspected it lo.
lol so everyone were squeezing inside the room except
for me.. haha i was with cass all along.
cos she would suspect more if i wasnt with her.
haha so yea celebrated her birthday,
ate talked. watched WWE at her house!
i like watching it la but its so..........
lol then went home at arnd 12.

exams..........................):

2009-09-29T18:18:00.000+08:00

EXAMS!!!!
NEEDA STUDY ALREADY!!! (:
not gonna post much.

2009-09-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

hey hey..

Signs of going to, having menses:

1) Feel more warm than usual,
2) Will get more angry easily,
3) Mood swings!

Damn i hate it la!!!!
its so hot!!!
and ppl please stop making me angry la..
you should know why.

well today met up with cass they all
to go for sports.
had volleyball match and we won again!(:
so happy, today is the finals luh.(:
last three balls were served by me!
haha so proud of myself but it was nerve-chilling!
imagine evryone counting on you! haha(:
then had dinner at 925, watched them eat
wasnt hungry.
went to play basketball after that!
was fun uh,
then home!

friday,
went to school,
was tired.
art was boring as usual,
kena lecture from tat fucktard again.
pe was damn fun.
played hand ball.
perspired like siao!
i played all the matches
as there werent enough ppl(:
then eng had test .
had oral after school it was ok.
went home bathed changed
met cass they all and went for church
was feeling so moody!
talked alot with 'wife'(:
went to 925 they had supper.
went to funland play awhile then home.

thursday!
i have pictures to upload but not now...
i don have them.
had school
poa remadial after tat.
first time i fail my poa test sia
really need to buck up!
rushed home
bathe change wore dress! haha(:
went to np met wx bryan vincent alvin faith,
went to orchard hotel??
jessica's wedding!(:
it was ok..
the food was ok..
evrything was ok.
took pics but i didnt manage to take pic with
the bride and groom,
so sad):
someone jus hadda ask me go toilet at the wrong time.
hmm... well, congratulations luh(:
.....
talked talked.
then left that place at 11plus.
walked to mrt station,
well, i didnt know orchard would be so scary!
so many gays!!!!lol
then took the last train back to yishun .
took bus and reach home arnd 1.
slept arnd 2am.
so sleepy.(:
well thats it...(:

i hope things would go the right way(:

2009-09-23T15:22:00.002+08:00

im bored.

haha...

well going for church later,

second part of create.

just now school was ok.

haha entertainers were funny(:

thanks for the entertainments! (;

tmr is jessica's wedding alrd.

im'a attending it! (:

weeeee...

hahahahahahahahahahahaha..

blank
blank
blank!

im bored,,,
i wanna go out..............

2009-09-21T11:48:00.003+08:00

I LOVE PANDA!(:

hey hey hey...
i finally went for volleyball
on sat after 2 weeks of not going.
haha and we won, besides, it was so fun.
we laughed so much and some ppl just had to
make fun of someone. lol...
then after a month, we finally played
basketball at night!
we used to play every sat night
but due to somethings we stopped.
and now hope we will do it again! (:
heh! i just love sports!(:

well, on friday had school
pe played basketball!
and after school, went out with ET(:
went to orchard . roamed ion, wisma and taka!
then headed back to yishun to meet cass they all.
ET went home and i went for church.
after that went to 925 with region b peeps.
they had supper and after a while i went home.
and erlyn lost her wallet again!
not her first time and not her second time! grr.

yesterday,,,,
went to church in the morning then had
lunch after that.
then spent so many hours in sembawang
'digging' for clothes for some human.
well, i bought a dress, same as someone..
im wearing it on jessica's wedding!!
HAH!(:
then they haddda go home..
so went home too(:
thats it...
bye(:

2009-09-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

aww shitz....
im so tired...
have not been sleeping well. ):
had rehearsal at night (mon, tues)
and yest was create!
all our efforts were paid off
cos we won the musical!!!!!!
yay we were all so happy to hear that!(:
It was really an enjoyable occasion!
i was enjoying every single part of it!
cant believe after all the weeks of rehearsing,
its all finished in that 12min?? ):
but . really enjoyed it. (:
I LOVE IT! (:
i think the musical will be shown in th
evangel website(:
weeeeeeeeee...
hahahaha

well today had school!!
damn sleepy .
kept sleeping):
then had training after school!
it was tough!
): i almost cried know!
we had to do SUICIDE RUN!
ALOT OF TIMES.
if im not wrong we ran more than 10?
and 7 of them hadda run one after the another.
had to come in by 30secs but we kept coming in at
35.. then 31.. then finally 30 secs!
we were all like going to die!
haha no more training next week!!!!!(:

btw, im bubbling.
my shoulders have bubbles cos of the sun burn.
my skin is gonna peel. Im a snake! haha(:
its so itchy man! but im scared to scratch.
well have to endure...

hmm and those ppl,
you know sunburns are very pain and
yet you all still can hit me happily.
why are you guys so stubborn?
i said dont hit and you still wanna hit.
(church peeps eh!?!?)
i was so angry!
pissed!

haha
hmm since 'someone' is reading my blog,
i shall not say anything(:
i guess u knw who u are?? (:

2009-09-14T12:43:00.003+08:00

haha..
im home now, i didn go to school.
im having terrible sunburn!
my shoulders are so red like lobsters.
my face red too but not like robsters
heh. pain y'know! ):
well my hoildays werent spent nicely.
still have to do my homework!
ive not done any.
hmm.......................

ytd had netball carnival from morning till
afternoon, arnd 8 hrs?
thats why im having sunburn eh.
rushed to church to have rehearsal.
then ate at sakura and home.

sat went out with an 'alien'(: to watch
aliens in the attic.
hehe the movie was nice! (:

friday met mook and mang to study..

thursday went swimming with cass,
didnt go for training. went for rehearsal at night.

wednesday party at night.

MY PHONE IS DEAD!! ):

i love you.
but i dont know... ):

2009-09-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

HAHA ET!! SO CUTE RIGHT??
HEH(:

2009-09-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

hmm,, im sad.
my phone committed suicide
and it died.
RIP phone ):
im really sad.......
now i have to use pathetic
spare phones!
i currently have 3 spare phones
and theres problems with all.
sad uh.
hmmmmmmmmmm....
no pics, sad uh.
well sorry for not blogging.
have been really busy..
okay..
last sat had flag day..
went with celine. panyusa. siti. ah tong
i was pissed for some time uh!
huh! wanted to go town do
but some ppl just didn bring ezlink and
money, so no choice hadda go near!
AMK! was totally a horrible place.
lots of ppl were asking for donations.
and worst thing, this security guard, damn him!
its a long story uh.. jus quarrelled with him.
f. then met diana n faris.
went back to sch. pan they all went on their own.
me hannah faris diana went amk again.
wanna watch movie but no more.
so headed to orchard watched g-force.
it was boring uh. walked arnd orchard.
trained back to yishun
met my sis and home at arnd 11.

holidays!
its not really holidays as we need to go back to sch for
remadial classes.
ytd had maths, no use going uh,
as usual didn pay attention.
went to mac to eat then home.
was suppose to go study with pan they all
but i was sleepy so went home took a nap
and went for rehearsal at night.

today.
went for poa class.
it sucked as mary hew kept screaming at us..
after that went to cut cake for yean tengs bday.
they played flour and i watched.
i wanted to play but i hadda go back to
school, so i chose not to.
went for training had match.
lost....
damn...
i hate your biasness!!!! ):

hmms tmr is gonna be a long day..
hmm i dont know what happened to me
this morning i woke up at 5 am,
vomitted and had terrible stomach ache.
hmms.. its scary.. pls pray for me.

heys! someone linked me to the song beautiful by akon!
im so touched! hehe(:

sorry uh.. give me more time k??(:

love ya(: